yes, ME, not Herself this time. :sigh:
I've been cleaning the Master Bedroom. Cleaning is when the Lord and I - mostly me - talk...and I have a bad attitude right now. I am ready to leave everything and follow Him - I am! really! - but...it burns me that if things play out the way the church teaches, I'll be leaving all my preps for someone else.
I am suffering from Ant syndrome (you know, from Aesop's fable, the Grasshopper and the Ant?).
I've done all this work - willingly! - to prep, doing everything He prompted me to do....and if the Rapture is the way the church teaches, I'll be leaving all of it for someone who refused to listen. More than likely, someone who claims to be chrischun, but who wasn't watching or listening...and it's really pissing me off. :sigh:
I KNOW what they're in for. I KNOW it's not going to be easy, and that my preps will be a blessing.....but that doesn't help my attitude, especially when I imagine who'll probably end up here. (Family member, probably - IF they're smart enough to drop their stupid prejudices about country living and get their butts OUT here, and IF they're even smarter and STAY here. Frankly, I have my doubts...but it's not my problem.) I am worried about the critters - if they stay, too, then whoever gets the house will get them. Even if I do leave detailed notes for whoever, they won't care about the critters like we have....and *that* bothers me.
I know I don't need to worry - the Lord will take care of things.....but my attitude sucks right now. I KNOW I need to work on that.....but today is just...I guess it's just not a good day.
I'm working on it....but right now? My attitude is worse than Herself's.....:sigh:
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