confusedI went to bed in a better frame of mind....but this morning, he's planning on calling the Rabbi of the shul in Dallas to see if he knows about the guy. :scratches head: I'm not sure what's going on, except that he told me this morning that HE needs to go to church. :sigh:
I get it - he's never been one to dig deep; he has always just sat and listened and accepted whatever the preacher told him. All the pagan stuff that churches do? Bother him - now - but not enough to cut all ties to organized religion. :bangs head: I get it - I DO! - but....
Look, I grew up a cradle-Lutheran. Dad is a retired Lutheran minister (yes, he went to Seminary! He's got papers! :lol:), and we were active in the church. Went thru 3 years of Confirmation classes (and actually learned about all the pagan influences, but...I was a good chrischun, and figured it didn't matter. Even though Scripture SAYS "do not mix the Holy and the profane" - I figured that the church had already figured things out, and everything was OK (hint: It's NOT. What part of "DO NOT" do they just not get?) Then I found Anna, and my eyes were opened and I started ASKING why.....which didn't end well. Or did, depending on your point of view. :wink:
He's.....he's STILL not digging deep. He says he wants to, so I dig up all the stuff that helped me, print it out/put it on his iPad......and he doesn't DO anything. We have *shelves* of books - and he hasn't cracked any of them (correction - he's opened 1; it's a Jewish commentary on the Torah. He's never made it past the 1st essay. In 3 years. :sigh:). He tries to tell me he just doesn't have the time....and yet, he has time to watch HOURS of YouTube videos on aquaponics. Or Beer-making. So....yeah. I've held off on starting TorahClass with the kids, because he wants to do it too....but I've had Genesis for almost a year - and we STILL haven't started it. (I'm going to just go ahead and schedule it - he can make time in his busy schedule to read it, if he really wants to. Trying to do it in the evenings - which I have offered, numerous times! - doesn't work, because he "Just wants to sit back and relax after work." Which = vegging on the couch in front of the TV. NOT doing a Torah study. Not even 1x/week. :sigh:)
I just.....don't feel comfortable about this. I don't know *why* - the reasons I posted last night don't really warrant my total disinclination of visiting. And - they offer Conversational Hebrew classes! ($75/family for 6 classes. Not bad.....but year 1 is 3 6-week segments. That's $225 for our family......and I can't quite figure out why they need to charge that much. No, it's not a LOT of money....but still.......I dunno. It just doesn't sit right, for some reason. Yes, they have the right to charge - I'm not disputing that. It's just.....the fact that first they say it's $75/family for the course, then in the small print you find out that it's $75 for each PORTION of the course.)
I'm trying to be supportive. I really am. But.....I *really* don't want to get involved with more false teaching. He's volunteered to go on his own....and I can't do that. He's not...alert?...enough to catch some of the more subtle falseness that's out there, and I don't want him to get involved with it. I also realize he's an adult, and needs to make his own decisions. :sigh:
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